I would not be lying to you if I said that my lack of blog posts and updates were a solid indicator of how busy the last few months of my life have been. But despite the steady pace of my life, the time that has elapsed since my last post has proven to be, once again, filled with opportunities to learn and to grow.
I feel like I'm in a really "good" place in my life right now. For the majority of this year, and if anyone reads this silly blog you already know, I have wrestled the fog of confusion, finding my purpose in life, becoming fulfilled in my seemingly insignificant tasks and "to do's" that are expected of me from day to day. It has proven to be a pivotal journey in my life, for sure. But I feel I have come out of the fog and leapt into excitement for the future and what is to come in my life. I was/have been so bogged down by what seemed like the small steps of life, that I foolishly failed to see the small steps of life as they truly are, stepping stones.
Under the influence of my generation, I have adopted the midset, and sometimes work ethic, that would wish to bypass the "small steps" and get straight to the big things, ie. my dreams that my heart desires to fulfill. But life doesn't work that way. You can't run a mile one day and a week later run a marathon, you know? You have to train, build, prepare and engage yourself to small commitments first before you can even begin to reasonably expect the "big" things to come. That lesson has been humbling, to say the least, and I feel that I can apply it to several areas of my life.
My mom always says that this particular time in my life is my "prime" and that I should be living life to fullest and doing everything that I feel called to do, now. My mom is a very wise woman and I completely agree with her. I think my problem and struggle post-graduation has been that I got caught up in the bigger picture. I didn't see my current situation as part of my ultimate dream and what I feel called to do. But it is. My current situation is a stepping stone to get to the person I would ultimately like to become. And when I look at life through those lenses, I see everything about the moment I'm in now as a blessing and a time to take advantage of the opportunities right in front of me.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Monday, September 5, 2011
23.
Today I turned 23 years old. I can't believe it. The year from 22 to 23 has been a memorable one, to say the least. It was my first year out of college and I must say that I learned more in my first year or so out of college than I did in the entirety of my collegiate career. I think that is so because my first year out of college is when I truly felt the sting of life.
Now don't get me wrong, my life is sweet. I wake up knowing that I have a job to go to everyday, where my next meal will come from and that I get to walk this life with wondeful people. But, with all of that aside, I feel like this past year has tested me, more than ever. My endurance, faith and character have been challenged in ways that I had not experienced before. Some of the circumstances led to immediate victory, while others left me flat on my face. A lot of the circumstances left me feeling very confused. I was struggling with wrapping my mind around this new chapter of my life. Some of you reading this might have made the adjustment with effortless ease, and for that I commend you, but for me that was not the case. I found it difficult to understand where I was going. What was I meant to do in this life? Who was I supposed to be?
In the midst of my questioning and confusion, God allowed this year to be one of the sweetest in my walk as a Christian. I probably made more mistakes in my 22nd year of life than all the others before it, but He is still so good. He draped His love, forgiveness and guidance like I had never experienced before. And, I think this year was so special to me because I finally realized that I didn't deserve Him. He is so, so good and I don't deserve Him.
With all of that being said, I am really excited about this year. I feel renewed. I feel I have learned a lot. Like, you have to laugh at life. Each day is new and exciting and if we're not excited about today then today is most likely being spent focusing on situations that only God can change, or ourselves. NEVER assume. We only get one life. So, if we're not investing in other people then will we, I, really be satisfied? And finally, I've learned to love my past. This last lesson is very personal. There are so many things in my past that I have struggled to forgive myself for, and that have caused me struggle accepting God's forgiveness. But, I've learned that the things in my past are beautiful because they have led me closer to a beautiful Savior.
I'm thankful for this year, the people in it and the lessons I have learned. This year was one of a kind, rough, hard and confusing... but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Now don't get me wrong, my life is sweet. I wake up knowing that I have a job to go to everyday, where my next meal will come from and that I get to walk this life with wondeful people. But, with all of that aside, I feel like this past year has tested me, more than ever. My endurance, faith and character have been challenged in ways that I had not experienced before. Some of the circumstances led to immediate victory, while others left me flat on my face. A lot of the circumstances left me feeling very confused. I was struggling with wrapping my mind around this new chapter of my life. Some of you reading this might have made the adjustment with effortless ease, and for that I commend you, but for me that was not the case. I found it difficult to understand where I was going. What was I meant to do in this life? Who was I supposed to be?
In the midst of my questioning and confusion, God allowed this year to be one of the sweetest in my walk as a Christian. I probably made more mistakes in my 22nd year of life than all the others before it, but He is still so good. He draped His love, forgiveness and guidance like I had never experienced before. And, I think this year was so special to me because I finally realized that I didn't deserve Him. He is so, so good and I don't deserve Him.
With all of that being said, I am really excited about this year. I feel renewed. I feel I have learned a lot. Like, you have to laugh at life. Each day is new and exciting and if we're not excited about today then today is most likely being spent focusing on situations that only God can change, or ourselves. NEVER assume. We only get one life. So, if we're not investing in other people then will we, I, really be satisfied? And finally, I've learned to love my past. This last lesson is very personal. There are so many things in my past that I have struggled to forgive myself for, and that have caused me struggle accepting God's forgiveness. But, I've learned that the things in my past are beautiful because they have led me closer to a beautiful Savior.
I'm thankful for this year, the people in it and the lessons I have learned. This year was one of a kind, rough, hard and confusing... but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Series of Occurrences
There is so much on my mind right now. It has been quite a week, I must say. As I sit here and type this (while listening to the new Mat Kearney CD; thanks "Mr. Disheveled"!) I am exhausted, hot (dang Mobile heat) and completely humbled.....
I have experienced a series of occurrences this week that have reminded me of how much I am not in control of anything; people, places or circumstances. They were simple situations wrapped in a greater message that, after a bit of reflection, I knew God had used to show me the beauty of humility. Earlier this week, I met a good friend to catch up on life and all that jazz. Over coffee and a chai latte we discussed what was new in our lives, and anything we needed specific prayer for. I asked that she pray for me about humilty. I've been struggling with it, and recently I have started to take notice on how my lack of humitlity in certain areas has affected my attitude and my daily walk. In short, God has been very faithful to humble in the areas where it was in need. I was not having the best day today and on my drive home, God, once again, reminded me of His grace, mercy, provision and timing. Quite humbling.
Some of what I'm referring to is in reference to my previous blog. It really is such a joy to find joy in other people's joy. It is a wonderful thing, a humbling thing and such a pure way to make a person feel special....
P.S. For your listening pleasure, I have included one of my favorite songs off of Mat Kearney's new album. I really love songs that tell stories.. and this one certainly does!
I have experienced a series of occurrences this week that have reminded me of how much I am not in control of anything; people, places or circumstances. They were simple situations wrapped in a greater message that, after a bit of reflection, I knew God had used to show me the beauty of humility. Earlier this week, I met a good friend to catch up on life and all that jazz. Over coffee and a chai latte we discussed what was new in our lives, and anything we needed specific prayer for. I asked that she pray for me about humilty. I've been struggling with it, and recently I have started to take notice on how my lack of humitlity in certain areas has affected my attitude and my daily walk. In short, God has been very faithful to humble in the areas where it was in need. I was not having the best day today and on my drive home, God, once again, reminded me of His grace, mercy, provision and timing. Quite humbling.
Some of what I'm referring to is in reference to my previous blog. It really is such a joy to find joy in other people's joy. It is a wonderful thing, a humbling thing and such a pure way to make a person feel special....
P.S. For your listening pleasure, I have included one of my favorite songs off of Mat Kearney's new album. I really love songs that tell stories.. and this one certainly does!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Joy
Eleanor Roosevelt once said, "Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness you give to others." I have recently been thinking about joy and how it relates to prayer.....
When I think of joyful people in my life, I am sad to say that only a few come to mind. But, when I think about those particular people, I think about how their joy and happiness seem to permeate me and make me feel the same. I love being around those people. Another thing I have come to notice about joyful people is that just because they are joyful, doesn't mean they are disconnected from the burdens and negative situations. In some cases that might be true, but they do experience disappointment and they are burdened by the struggles in their lives and the lives of the people close to them. But in my eyes, they are truly the people who live out Romans 12:15. They "rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn." They are selfless and are in tune with the struggles of life that their loved ones are going through. They pray for them, love them and support them, no matter the cost or convenience to them.
I have been praying, for awhile now, about a situation and have been asking God to really have His way with it. It has been amazing to see what God has done with that situation, from start to finish. God is so good and His ways are so perfect. He is faithful to provide. Even though the situation does not directly involve me, I felt joy because of what God has done in the lives of the people I have been praying for.
When I think of the people in my life who are consistently joyful, my prayer is that one day I will be one of those people to someone else. I pray that my walk with God is that intimate where I can experience joy from other people's joy and answered prayers. To pray for people, to rejoice with them, to mourn with them, that is why I have the relationships that I do. Too often I focus on what I receive or how I feel from friendships and relationships, but what a sweeter way to live if I was simply pleased by what I gave to the relationships... when I give of myself and that is enough.
When I think of joyful people in my life, I am sad to say that only a few come to mind. But, when I think about those particular people, I think about how their joy and happiness seem to permeate me and make me feel the same. I love being around those people. Another thing I have come to notice about joyful people is that just because they are joyful, doesn't mean they are disconnected from the burdens and negative situations. In some cases that might be true, but they do experience disappointment and they are burdened by the struggles in their lives and the lives of the people close to them. But in my eyes, they are truly the people who live out Romans 12:15. They "rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn." They are selfless and are in tune with the struggles of life that their loved ones are going through. They pray for them, love them and support them, no matter the cost or convenience to them.
I have been praying, for awhile now, about a situation and have been asking God to really have His way with it. It has been amazing to see what God has done with that situation, from start to finish. God is so good and His ways are so perfect. He is faithful to provide. Even though the situation does not directly involve me, I felt joy because of what God has done in the lives of the people I have been praying for.
When I think of the people in my life who are consistently joyful, my prayer is that one day I will be one of those people to someone else. I pray that my walk with God is that intimate where I can experience joy from other people's joy and answered prayers. To pray for people, to rejoice with them, to mourn with them, that is why I have the relationships that I do. Too often I focus on what I receive or how I feel from friendships and relationships, but what a sweeter way to live if I was simply pleased by what I gave to the relationships... when I give of myself and that is enough.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Halfway
I can't believe it. We are halfway through 2011! Where has the time gone?
I'm currently doing a mental recap of my year thus far and I'm overwhelmed by the experiences that I have encountered to date...
Wednesday will mark my one-year anniversary at my job. It is hard to believe that I was going through training this time last year. Now, it feels like second nature. I remember shadowing on tours, my first move-in day experience and the first day of class as an employee. Then came my first private visit and college fair. The first time I stayed in a hotel by myself, the random and obscure questions that I received from students that no mock fair can prepare you for and trying to navigate my way to my appointment, no thanks to my GPS who, at the time, was having an electronic breakdown have given me such incredible memories and experiences.
I have been hesitant to talk about my singleness, but it is a part of my life so I might as well share about that area of my life with you, as well. I have been single for just over two years. That is a decent amount of time and during that time, and especially this year, I think I have felt every high and low of being single. I have enjoyed having time to focus on my goals and aspirations. I have grown as a person and my relationship with God has been so sweet. Then, there are times when I am overwhelmed with emotion waiting on that man God has for me. There have been times when I thought, "I have found the man of my dreams", only for time to show me that he was really meant for someone else's dream. I was talking with a friend at work the other day and we were discussing the topic of singleness. He was talking about how God prepares us just as much when we are single as He does when we are in relationships. I agree wholeheartedly with that statement. So, no matter how many times I get asked why I am not dating anybody or why I am still single, I am content and confident with where God has me. I am happy and that is exactly what I want my single years to look like.
You know, my list of things I want to accomplish for this year is no where near completion, but this has been a good year so far. Although, it has been a hard and confusing first-half of the year. I have struggled with things, even some that you've read about in my blogs. But, in other ways I have never felt more energized. I am excited about what is in store.
So, with the first half of this year behind us, let's make the second half even sweeter :)
I'm currently doing a mental recap of my year thus far and I'm overwhelmed by the experiences that I have encountered to date...
Wednesday will mark my one-year anniversary at my job. It is hard to believe that I was going through training this time last year. Now, it feels like second nature. I remember shadowing on tours, my first move-in day experience and the first day of class as an employee. Then came my first private visit and college fair. The first time I stayed in a hotel by myself, the random and obscure questions that I received from students that no mock fair can prepare you for and trying to navigate my way to my appointment, no thanks to my GPS who, at the time, was having an electronic breakdown have given me such incredible memories and experiences.
I have been hesitant to talk about my singleness, but it is a part of my life so I might as well share about that area of my life with you, as well. I have been single for just over two years. That is a decent amount of time and during that time, and especially this year, I think I have felt every high and low of being single. I have enjoyed having time to focus on my goals and aspirations. I have grown as a person and my relationship with God has been so sweet. Then, there are times when I am overwhelmed with emotion waiting on that man God has for me. There have been times when I thought, "I have found the man of my dreams", only for time to show me that he was really meant for someone else's dream. I was talking with a friend at work the other day and we were discussing the topic of singleness. He was talking about how God prepares us just as much when we are single as He does when we are in relationships. I agree wholeheartedly with that statement. So, no matter how many times I get asked why I am not dating anybody or why I am still single, I am content and confident with where God has me. I am happy and that is exactly what I want my single years to look like.
You know, my list of things I want to accomplish for this year is no where near completion, but this has been a good year so far. Although, it has been a hard and confusing first-half of the year. I have struggled with things, even some that you've read about in my blogs. But, in other ways I have never felt more energized. I am excited about what is in store.
So, with the first half of this year behind us, let's make the second half even sweeter :)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Bueller... Bueller...
Ok so everyone remembers this scene from the 80s movies Ferris Bueller's Day Off, right? I mean it's classic. Well, I was reminded of this particular part of the movie recently while I was driving home from work the other day...
This timeless scene was triggered because I came to the realization that recently I have not been very "present" in my life. My mind is either consumed by matters of my past, or is absorbed by thoughts and anticipation of my future. I have lost my concentration on what I am actually doing NOW. If you have read any of my previous blogs you are aware that I am in this season of my life where I am trying to figure things out. It has been a beautiful, confusing journey. As thought provoking and wonderful as it has been, I feel my attention on where God has me and what He has me doing at this very moment has been distracted. It is as if God has been calling "Katelyn.. Katelyn" out to me and I have been too consumed with my thoughts to hear Him.
I want to be in the mindset of the here and now. As much as I am ready to be out of this season and into another, I do not want to miss the gifts of this season. I do not want to miss the opportunities of this season in my life, because one day my life will be drastically different and I want to look back knowing that this chapter was complete. Even the things and situations about the season I am in now that do not appear to be a blessing or valuable, I want to see them as treasures of great worth in my life now.
I am a planner and a dreamer, so my mind is, more often than not, preoccupied with everything but the here and now. Being present is something I have always struggled with, and I have not always realized it. But now that God has pricked my heart about this particular area of my life, I want to see change. I want to make the most of these days. Not just for myself, but for the peace of knowing that I gave up my control to dwell on the past and plan the future, to simply give myself to the circumstances, people and opportunities that are a current part of my life.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Glass Half Full
Well, it is time again for another blog....
I recently returned from a long weekend getaway at Chestnut Bay Resort on Lake Weiss in North Alabama with my family. Although it was a quick trip, it was absolutely wonderful, nonetheless. It was the ideal blend of relaxing, outdoor activities, family time and just simply letting my hair down (or, really throwing it in a ponytail). This vacation allowed me to refocus and de-clutter my mind for a bit. Everyone should have a vacation, at some point. It is good for the soul.
I recently returned from a long weekend getaway at Chestnut Bay Resort on Lake Weiss in North Alabama with my family. Although it was a quick trip, it was absolutely wonderful, nonetheless. It was the ideal blend of relaxing, outdoor activities, family time and just simply letting my hair down (or, really throwing it in a ponytail). This vacation allowed me to refocus and de-clutter my mind for a bit. Everyone should have a vacation, at some point. It is good for the soul.
They are the cutest nephews ever.
Fun poolside.
The whole gang.
Lovely.
In addition to mini-vacation, I have been praying for a change in attitude about certain situations in my life. There are many things that, for so long, I've looked at as negative things in my life. Well, I believe that I'm in this stage of life for a purpose and I should do nothing but rejoice in that. It is not always easy to have this mindset, but I have to take a permanent vacation from looking at the glass half empty. I have to do this for myself and, more importantly, for the God I serve and who gave me this life that I'm living. It is His, and He deserves nothing less than my best. I read this excerpt from Oswald Chamber's My Utmost for His Highest last night and I took a lot from its meaningful message....
"If I will do my duty, not for duty’s sake but because I believe God is engineering my circumstances, then at the very point of my obedience all of the magnificent grace of God is mine through the glorious atonement by the Cross of Christ."
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Copyright Laws for Facebook?
So most of my blogs are semi-serious, but this one is not, although it is very much a true story. This particular blog is about a recent Facebook realization...
The "About Me" section of your Facebook profile is meant to represent who you are and tell your Facebook stalkers a little about yourself. It gives a glimpse of who you are, beyond all of your photos, wall posts and regularly updated statuses. Facebook is not a huge deal in my life. I don't spend hours uploading new photos or changing my status to let my friends know the play-by-play of my day, but there are a few things I do have on my Facebook profile that do, I feel, describe myself... ie. my "About Me" section.
I was randomly jumping from Facebook profile to Facebook profile today and came across someone I knew. I glanced at a few pictures and then scrolled down to read their "Quotes" and "About Me" section, which are always my favorite part of someone's Facebook profile. As I began reading their "About Me" section I realized that what I was reading sounding entirely too familiar. This person, who will be left anonymous, stole my "About Me" section I once wrote about myself(keyword). I know this is a minor thing but, to be honest, I was quite appalled. Who steals someone's "About Me" section? How can what I have to say about MY life correctly identify this person's circumstances and dreams?
I didn't know whether to be flattered or flabbergasted. But, I regained composure after venting to my fellow co-workers about the unexpected situation. My "About Me" section is changed and no longer matches the anonymous individual, but I can't help but wonder, "Are there any Copyright laws for Facebook?"
The "About Me" section of your Facebook profile is meant to represent who you are and tell your Facebook stalkers a little about yourself. It gives a glimpse of who you are, beyond all of your photos, wall posts and regularly updated statuses. Facebook is not a huge deal in my life. I don't spend hours uploading new photos or changing my status to let my friends know the play-by-play of my day, but there are a few things I do have on my Facebook profile that do, I feel, describe myself... ie. my "About Me" section.
I was randomly jumping from Facebook profile to Facebook profile today and came across someone I knew. I glanced at a few pictures and then scrolled down to read their "Quotes" and "About Me" section, which are always my favorite part of someone's Facebook profile. As I began reading their "About Me" section I realized that what I was reading sounding entirely too familiar. This person, who will be left anonymous, stole my "About Me" section I once wrote about myself(keyword). I know this is a minor thing but, to be honest, I was quite appalled. Who steals someone's "About Me" section? How can what I have to say about MY life correctly identify this person's circumstances and dreams?
I didn't know whether to be flattered or flabbergasted. But, I regained composure after venting to my fellow co-workers about the unexpected situation. My "About Me" section is changed and no longer matches the anonymous individual, but I can't help but wonder, "Are there any Copyright laws for Facebook?"
Thursday, May 19, 2011
A Confidence That Is Real
I feel like since this year has begun that my relationship with God has changed so much. I do not mean this in a negative way, but it is just so different. Experiences and circumstances have challenged, and forced, me to see His beauty in ways that are new and fresh to me.
I spent my whole life in church. When Sunday rolled around I was always marked "present" in my Sunday School class and I graced the same back row pew with my family by my side. The subject of God and religion have always been present in the household I grew up in. I am very thankful for that. But, there comes that time in an individual's life when God goes beyond VBS, the youth group and various church functions. It is when He becomes real.
I accepted Christ at an early age and have grown to admire Him since that point. I can look back and see the people who poured into my life and encouraged me in my walk with God. They invested in my life, and I am unsure if at the time I was really aware the impact they were having on me as much as I do today. They taught me the fundamentals and, most importantly, they lived the way they talked. That is a beautiful thing that is rare to see and experience.
During college I could sense a change in the way I viewed God and what He meant to me. I felt Him in a way that allowed me to know that He truly did satisfy all of my desires. Life was good, and so was He. Guys came into the picture during this time in my life (I guess you could say I was late bloomer in this category) and He showed me how He pursues me as well. He knows how to love me better than any other. He showed me that He knew how to love me in such a great way because He knew me. He was personal.
From the end of my collegiate career to this very moment, I have been in a major "funk". It takes a lot for me to admit that. I am an extremely private person and I like to have things, ie. my life, together. I do not understand this phase of my life. What is harder to deal with sometimes is noticing that not everyone appears to walk through this mysterious period of existence. I cannot be the only person, but sometimes I feel like it. I have searched for a lot of things during the past year or so of my life. Trying to figure out what I could possibly have been placed on this earth to do. There have been seasons where I felt as if I would wander forever searching for my purpose, while living in the fear that I would stumble upon it when it is too late for me to fully enjoy in it. You are probably thinking "wow she worries a lot" and you would be correct (but I am praying about it). Despite all of this worrying and confusion, He has been by my side. Whether I make Him happy or disappointed, He never fails. His love is exhausting to me because of its consistency and His unwavering ability to love me, even at my darkest times. But through this "funk" there comes a sort of confidence. A confidence that this is real. He is real in my life. I may make poor decisions and try to do things on my own strength, but when I am hopeless He is mindful of me. There is a casualness to my relationship with Him because of the years we have spent together, but there is such a reverence and awe within me that will never cease.
I did not write this blog to draw attention to myself or my walk with God. I fail so often. I make poor decisions. But He has turned those poor decisions into wisdom for the future. Those circumstances have brought me closer to Him and closer to the peace that He brings. I want that for you as well.
I spent my whole life in church. When Sunday rolled around I was always marked "present" in my Sunday School class and I graced the same back row pew with my family by my side. The subject of God and religion have always been present in the household I grew up in. I am very thankful for that. But, there comes that time in an individual's life when God goes beyond VBS, the youth group and various church functions. It is when He becomes real.
I accepted Christ at an early age and have grown to admire Him since that point. I can look back and see the people who poured into my life and encouraged me in my walk with God. They invested in my life, and I am unsure if at the time I was really aware the impact they were having on me as much as I do today. They taught me the fundamentals and, most importantly, they lived the way they talked. That is a beautiful thing that is rare to see and experience.
During college I could sense a change in the way I viewed God and what He meant to me. I felt Him in a way that allowed me to know that He truly did satisfy all of my desires. Life was good, and so was He. Guys came into the picture during this time in my life (I guess you could say I was late bloomer in this category) and He showed me how He pursues me as well. He knows how to love me better than any other. He showed me that He knew how to love me in such a great way because He knew me. He was personal.
From the end of my collegiate career to this very moment, I have been in a major "funk". It takes a lot for me to admit that. I am an extremely private person and I like to have things, ie. my life, together. I do not understand this phase of my life. What is harder to deal with sometimes is noticing that not everyone appears to walk through this mysterious period of existence. I cannot be the only person, but sometimes I feel like it. I have searched for a lot of things during the past year or so of my life. Trying to figure out what I could possibly have been placed on this earth to do. There have been seasons where I felt as if I would wander forever searching for my purpose, while living in the fear that I would stumble upon it when it is too late for me to fully enjoy in it. You are probably thinking "wow she worries a lot" and you would be correct (but I am praying about it). Despite all of this worrying and confusion, He has been by my side. Whether I make Him happy or disappointed, He never fails. His love is exhausting to me because of its consistency and His unwavering ability to love me, even at my darkest times. But through this "funk" there comes a sort of confidence. A confidence that this is real. He is real in my life. I may make poor decisions and try to do things on my own strength, but when I am hopeless He is mindful of me. There is a casualness to my relationship with Him because of the years we have spent together, but there is such a reverence and awe within me that will never cease.
I did not write this blog to draw attention to myself or my walk with God. I fail so often. I make poor decisions. But He has turned those poor decisions into wisdom for the future. Those circumstances have brought me closer to Him and closer to the peace that He brings. I want that for you as well.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Southern Hospitality
I have a variety of dreams that often have me living in some other place... somewhere new and exciting. A place that is out of the 251 area code. Although that is very much the truth, I've been reminded recently that I am so happy I'm from the good ole state of Alabama and that I can call myself a southern girl. I love the warm weather, and I like it when people say "y'all" or that they are "fixin" to go somewhere. It never fails that when I'm talking with someone who has a strong southern accent, I pick it up very quickly and easily. My words become a little longer and are encompassed by a bit more twang that usual. I love when I drive in my neighborhood people still send me a "hello" wave as I'm passing by.
Growing up on Mobile Bay, my summers were comprised of salty air, fishing and family. It was wonderful. I can't wait to see where the future takes me and where I might end up one day, but I love that I'm from the South. There's just something about that southern hospitality....
On an even more random note, I love this song by J.D. McPherson. I'm a fan of the song's old school feel. This song made me smile and tap my feet to the music. Hopefully it will bring a smile to your day too!
Growing up on Mobile Bay, my summers were comprised of salty air, fishing and family. It was wonderful. I can't wait to see where the future takes me and where I might end up one day, but I love that I'm from the South. There's just something about that southern hospitality....
On an even more random note, I love this song by J.D. McPherson. I'm a fan of the song's old school feel. This song made me smile and tap my feet to the music. Hopefully it will bring a smile to your day too!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Just Thoughts...
Well, apparently I am a slacker on blogging. It has been almost two months since my last post. I'm never really sure how to begin these blogs, so I'll jump right in to what has been happening in my life recently...
Work. It seems like that is all I do these days. I like what I do, honestly. I enjoy knowing that I, at the very least, have the opportunity to make a difference in a student's academic career. Even if I just make it a smooth transition for them, that is enough for me. But, there are times when I struggle with being an adult. I know that sounds so silly and juvenile, but I have realized lately that there is such a large part of me that is a complete dreamer. There are so many places I want to go. So many things I want to do. For instance, I've always wanted to go England. If I could go anywhere in the world right now, that's where I would go. I want to experience the thrill of London, and I want to feel the peace that comes from the exquistite English countryside. But I can't just up and go to England. My responsibilities and my bank account will not permit me to do so. I want to paint, get back to photography. I want to start swimming again. I want to volunteer. I want time to do the things that I promised myself I would do this year. I just want time to be me. As I write this I feel so selfish because all of these sentences begin with "I", so how do I try and figure out who Katelyn Graham is, without getting caught up in the life of Katelyn Graham? I know that everyone goes through this battle of our dreams v.s reality. But what is the solution? What's a girl to do?
I'm just trying to figure everything out. I've tried to fight and cover up the fact that I don't have everything together. I like to appear focused and that I have everything planned out. But, I do not. I have no idea what my future holds. I have no clue what God wants for my life. I know what the desires of my heart are, so I am trying to bask in the fact that God will lead me where He wants and that He will give me the clarity, passion and peace along the way. I am trying to enjoy not knowing. If you're actually reading this and you happen to think about it, please pray for me about this. Thank you so much dear friends.
Work. It seems like that is all I do these days. I like what I do, honestly. I enjoy knowing that I, at the very least, have the opportunity to make a difference in a student's academic career. Even if I just make it a smooth transition for them, that is enough for me. But, there are times when I struggle with being an adult. I know that sounds so silly and juvenile, but I have realized lately that there is such a large part of me that is a complete dreamer. There are so many places I want to go. So many things I want to do. For instance, I've always wanted to go England. If I could go anywhere in the world right now, that's where I would go. I want to experience the thrill of London, and I want to feel the peace that comes from the exquistite English countryside. But I can't just up and go to England. My responsibilities and my bank account will not permit me to do so. I want to paint, get back to photography. I want to start swimming again. I want to volunteer. I want time to do the things that I promised myself I would do this year. I just want time to be me. As I write this I feel so selfish because all of these sentences begin with "I", so how do I try and figure out who Katelyn Graham is, without getting caught up in the life of Katelyn Graham? I know that everyone goes through this battle of our dreams v.s reality. But what is the solution? What's a girl to do?
I'm just trying to figure everything out. I've tried to fight and cover up the fact that I don't have everything together. I like to appear focused and that I have everything planned out. But, I do not. I have no idea what my future holds. I have no clue what God wants for my life. I know what the desires of my heart are, so I am trying to bask in the fact that God will lead me where He wants and that He will give me the clarity, passion and peace along the way. I am trying to enjoy not knowing. If you're actually reading this and you happen to think about it, please pray for me about this. Thank you so much dear friends.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Wonderful.
I'm not exactly sure how to begin this blog. God has been showing me so many things lately that I'm unsure how to form the words to compose a sentence that will relay to you what I'm trying to say. But, I guess that the only place I know where to begin is God's grace. I feel like recently I have experienced His grace and mercy so much more than I ever have. Some of the circumstances He has used to show me these beautiful attributes of Himself have been stressful and confusing, but now that I have started to see and feel Him in such a raw and uninhibited way, I'm so thankful for those circumstances. I don't understand Him. He is too good and I don't deserve His love or the relationship with Him that He eagerly awaits to experience with me everyday. I fail Him so often. I forget about Him so often. I take Him for granted, but He still provides. I think I know what is best, but He continues to show me His plan and timing are so perfect.
I'm at this point where I just don't know what the next step is or where I'm supposed to be. This has been such a journey for me. I have never felt this way before, if I'm being completely honest. I'm trying to figure out where God wants me and where I can be used. It has been such a lonely process at times. But, He has placed so many people in my life that encourage me, pray for me and, most of all, just want to be there for me. Some of those people might not even realize the affect they have had on me. I've truly started to realize that we are made for relationships. We can't do this alone. Most of the time I try to do this life on my own. I want to feel strong enough by not needing people to rely on. But I couldn't be more wrong. I need communication with other people. I need someone to laugh with after an exhausting day. I'm beyond thankful for the people that have poured their time, energy and love on me.
I realize this blog was quite random, but is a taste of what God is doing in my life right now. He is showering me in His grace and using people in my life to show me His love for me. Wonderful.
I'm at this point where I just don't know what the next step is or where I'm supposed to be. This has been such a journey for me. I have never felt this way before, if I'm being completely honest. I'm trying to figure out where God wants me and where I can be used. It has been such a lonely process at times. But, He has placed so many people in my life that encourage me, pray for me and, most of all, just want to be there for me. Some of those people might not even realize the affect they have had on me. I've truly started to realize that we are made for relationships. We can't do this alone. Most of the time I try to do this life on my own. I want to feel strong enough by not needing people to rely on. But I couldn't be more wrong. I need communication with other people. I need someone to laugh with after an exhausting day. I'm beyond thankful for the people that have poured their time, energy and love on me.
I realize this blog was quite random, but is a taste of what God is doing in my life right now. He is showering me in His grace and using people in my life to show me His love for me. Wonderful.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Working Hard or Hardly Working?
Lately I have been doing a great deal of thinking for a proper definition of hard work. I know this appears to be a simple answer, but I can't help but wonder if this definition has changed over the course of a few generations. Let me explain.
When I started my job this summer, the university had this seminar (for lack of a better term) examining this generation of students that we would be working with for the upcoming year and how their attitudes toward life will affect their college decision making process. It took a look at the current generation and the two generations preceeding it. The students of this generation were described as taking longer to become self-reliant, having a sense of entitlement to anything they think they deserve and desiring quick success with little effort. This description has been on mind since that day in August, and possibly so because I am grouped into that generation.
The more I think about it, the more I see it. If we want to lose weight, we simply take a pill. We learn how to do the minimal just to get by, whether it is school, work, relationships, etc. Often times commitment to people or organizations are nonexsitent due to the fear that someone might actually expect something from them, ie. responsibility. So, is this true? Do teenagers and young adults not know the definition of hard work and/or are they practicing it? Even worse, do they care? I know, of course, that this is all based on the overall and not everyone lumped into this category has this mindset, but still I think it is something worth further observation.
As I ponder these things I refer back to my original question of hard work. Is hard work doing what you are told and then going home at the end of the day? Or, is it doing what you're told to the best of your ability? Or, is it doing what you're told to the best of your ability AND going above and beyond when necessary? Would a "hard worker" complain when having to do a task that is not his or her job? Or, would he or she lend a hand if that meant the job would be completed? As I type these questions I admittedly am unsure of my answers. Of course I know which answers I would like to pick, but do they definitively describe my work ethic? Are they the adjectives that reflect my work habits and attitudes? I do not know. In addition to all this pondering, is it true that this generation, I, expect the best even if when the time has not been served?
So many things to think about. My hope and desire for this generation, for myself, is that we would examine this topic of hard work in each of our lives. That we take responsibility, neglect laziness in exchange for determination and discipline and surrender our need to "keep up with the Joneses".
When I started my job this summer, the university had this seminar (for lack of a better term) examining this generation of students that we would be working with for the upcoming year and how their attitudes toward life will affect their college decision making process. It took a look at the current generation and the two generations preceeding it. The students of this generation were described as taking longer to become self-reliant, having a sense of entitlement to anything they think they deserve and desiring quick success with little effort. This description has been on mind since that day in August, and possibly so because I am grouped into that generation.
The more I think about it, the more I see it. If we want to lose weight, we simply take a pill. We learn how to do the minimal just to get by, whether it is school, work, relationships, etc. Often times commitment to people or organizations are nonexsitent due to the fear that someone might actually expect something from them, ie. responsibility. So, is this true? Do teenagers and young adults not know the definition of hard work and/or are they practicing it? Even worse, do they care? I know, of course, that this is all based on the overall and not everyone lumped into this category has this mindset, but still I think it is something worth further observation.
As I ponder these things I refer back to my original question of hard work. Is hard work doing what you are told and then going home at the end of the day? Or, is it doing what you're told to the best of your ability? Or, is it doing what you're told to the best of your ability AND going above and beyond when necessary? Would a "hard worker" complain when having to do a task that is not his or her job? Or, would he or she lend a hand if that meant the job would be completed? As I type these questions I admittedly am unsure of my answers. Of course I know which answers I would like to pick, but do they definitively describe my work ethic? Are they the adjectives that reflect my work habits and attitudes? I do not know. In addition to all this pondering, is it true that this generation, I, expect the best even if when the time has not been served?
So many things to think about. My hope and desire for this generation, for myself, is that we would examine this topic of hard work in each of our lives. That we take responsibility, neglect laziness in exchange for determination and discipline and surrender our need to "keep up with the Joneses".
Sunday, January 23, 2011
The Simplicity of Love
For the past few months I have spent Sundays attending the church I grew up in. My parents still attend and for some reason I felt God leading me back to place where I spent my childhood and youth. It has changed a great deal since I was a member. The congregation is smaller. It is also very diverse. The people that fill the pews every week have various backgrounds, ethnicities (accompanied by various languages) and economic statuses. The church has experienced numerous highs and lows over the past few years, but God has continued to provide and their doors have remained opened.
As I sat in church this morning, I looked around at the people who were worshipping together, and then I noticed something beautiful. The group of people together in that room were all so incredibly different in so many ways, but yet we were all joined together by one common purpose, by one unified Love. We are all brothers and sisters because of Christ and I thought to myself, "this is what heaven must be like". A group of people, who on a normal day might not come in contact with each other, but when it is time to worship our Creator, the bond could not be stronger.
So often I get caught up in my own bubble that I don't even take time to reach out to people that are outside of my inner circle. As I type this I realize how selfish I have been. I am guilty of, at times, only looking at the outward appearance. But really, we are all so much alike. This morning reminded me of that. No matter our differences, we are bonded together by God's grace and love. We all struggle with different areas in our lives. So often I think we look at those areas in our "brothers and sisters" and dwell upon them rather than encouraging each other. And, please know that when I say "we", I really am talking about my own lack of compassion and love.
I guess to sum up this blog all I can say is that God is showing me so much about love. About how love goes beyond the exterior and that I hope I can say I lived my life being more concerned with loving others, than being loved.
This year is going to be such a journey...
As I sat in church this morning, I looked around at the people who were worshipping together, and then I noticed something beautiful. The group of people together in that room were all so incredibly different in so many ways, but yet we were all joined together by one common purpose, by one unified Love. We are all brothers and sisters because of Christ and I thought to myself, "this is what heaven must be like". A group of people, who on a normal day might not come in contact with each other, but when it is time to worship our Creator, the bond could not be stronger.
So often I get caught up in my own bubble that I don't even take time to reach out to people that are outside of my inner circle. As I type this I realize how selfish I have been. I am guilty of, at times, only looking at the outward appearance. But really, we are all so much alike. This morning reminded me of that. No matter our differences, we are bonded together by God's grace and love. We all struggle with different areas in our lives. So often I think we look at those areas in our "brothers and sisters" and dwell upon them rather than encouraging each other. And, please know that when I say "we", I really am talking about my own lack of compassion and love.
I guess to sum up this blog all I can say is that God is showing me so much about love. About how love goes beyond the exterior and that I hope I can say I lived my life being more concerned with loving others, than being loved.
This year is going to be such a journey...
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Here We Go...
January brings new beginnings. Or at least that is the mindset that comes with the dropping of the ball in Time Square every year. We celebrate, and then we make new year resolutions so that we might have hope that the things we really wanted to see happen last year will finally come about this year. Anything we were unsatisfied with last year, which seems like some sort of vague memory or hazy dream, is allowed to be wiped clean and we are all free to start over. That sounds great, but I hope that I still carry the memory of the people, places, accomplishments and disappointments that the year 2010 bestowed upon my life.
With the fluff of the New Year celebrations ceased and the normal routine of life has resumed, I have been thinking about things that I want to see happen this year in my life. I am in a slightly awkward, in-between stage in my life. I graduated college in May and began my first "real" job in the summer. I am at this crossroad of still being a young woman in my early 20s merged with someone who now has a business card and career goals. A large part of me wants to see the world with no inhibitions. To be able to wake up one day, pack my bags and see this beautiful world we live in sounds like bliss. But, then I am brought back to reality by the constant ringing of the phone on my desk with eager high school students anxiously awaiting me to assist them with their college dreams. And the strange honesty of it all is that I love it.
So, I guess I should get to my point of writing this blog. I have a deep feeling this will be a very unique year for me. There are a lot of things that I would like to see happen this year in my personal life. Most of the things will require a grand amount of faith and self-discipline, but I am in sweet anticipation of the year that lies ahead. I expect some self-reflection with a side dose of growth and maturity along the way. And that excites me. It will be comparable to an "Eat Pray Love" experience. But instead of Julia Roberts it is just Katelyn Graham, and instead of Bali and Italy as the backdrop for my story you have the southern charm of Mobile, AL.
I want this to be my online journal and time line for this upcoming year in my life. I think it is going to be a good year. For me and you.
With the fluff of the New Year celebrations ceased and the normal routine of life has resumed, I have been thinking about things that I want to see happen this year in my life. I am in a slightly awkward, in-between stage in my life. I graduated college in May and began my first "real" job in the summer. I am at this crossroad of still being a young woman in my early 20s merged with someone who now has a business card and career goals. A large part of me wants to see the world with no inhibitions. To be able to wake up one day, pack my bags and see this beautiful world we live in sounds like bliss. But, then I am brought back to reality by the constant ringing of the phone on my desk with eager high school students anxiously awaiting me to assist them with their college dreams. And the strange honesty of it all is that I love it.
So, I guess I should get to my point of writing this blog. I have a deep feeling this will be a very unique year for me. There are a lot of things that I would like to see happen this year in my personal life. Most of the things will require a grand amount of faith and self-discipline, but I am in sweet anticipation of the year that lies ahead. I expect some self-reflection with a side dose of growth and maturity along the way. And that excites me. It will be comparable to an "Eat Pray Love" experience. But instead of Julia Roberts it is just Katelyn Graham, and instead of Bali and Italy as the backdrop for my story you have the southern charm of Mobile, AL.
I want this to be my online journal and time line for this upcoming year in my life. I think it is going to be a good year. For me and you.
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