Wonderful.

I'm not exactly sure how to begin this blog. God has been showing me so many things lately that I'm unsure how to form the words to compose a sentence that will relay to you what I'm trying to say. But, I guess that the only place I know where to begin is God's grace. I feel like recently I have experienced His grace and mercy so much more than I ever have. Some of the circumstances He has used to show me these beautiful attributes of Himself have been stressful and confusing, but now that I have started to see and feel Him in such a raw and uninhibited way, I'm so thankful for those circumstances. I don't understand Him. He is too good and I don't deserve His love or the relationship with Him that He eagerly awaits to experience with me everyday. I fail Him so often. I forget about Him so often. I take Him for granted, but He still provides. I think I know what is best, but He continues to show me His plan and timing are so perfect.

I'm at this point where I just don't know what the next step is or where I'm supposed to be. This has been such a journey for me. I have never felt this way before, if I'm being completely honest. I'm trying to figure out where God wants me and where I can be used. It has been such a lonely process at times. But, He has placed so many people in my life that encourage me, pray for me and, most of all, just want to be there for me. Some of those people might not even realize the affect they have had on me. I've truly started to realize that we are made for relationships. We can't do this alone. Most of the time I try to do this life on my own. I want to feel strong enough by not needing people to rely on. But I couldn't be more wrong. I need communication with other people. I need someone to laugh with after an exhausting day. I'm beyond thankful for the people that have poured their time, energy and love on me.

I realize this blog was quite random, but is a taste of what God is doing in my life right now. He is showering me in His grace and using people in my life to show me His love for me. Wonderful.