Just Thoughts...

Well, apparently I am a slacker on blogging. It has been almost two months since my last post. I'm never really sure how to begin these blogs, so I'll jump right in to what has been happening in my life recently...

Work. It seems like that is all I do these days. I like what I do, honestly. I enjoy knowing that I, at the very least, have the opportunity to make a difference in a student's academic career. Even if I just make it a smooth transition for them, that is enough for me. But, there are times when I struggle with being an adult. I know that sounds so silly and juvenile, but I have realized lately that there is such a large part of  me that is a complete dreamer. There are so many places I want to go. So many things I want to do. For instance, I've always wanted to go England. If I could go anywhere in the world right now, that's where I would go. I want to experience the thrill of London, and I want to feel the peace that comes from the exquistite English countryside. But I can't just up and go to England. My responsibilities and my bank account will not permit me to do so. I want to paint, get back to photography. I want to start swimming again. I want to volunteer. I want time to do the things that I promised myself I would do this year. I just want time to be me. As I write this I feel so selfish because all of these sentences begin with "I", so how do I try and figure out who Katelyn Graham is, without getting caught up in the life of Katelyn Graham? I know that everyone goes through this battle of our dreams v.s reality. But what is the solution? What's a girl to do?

I'm just trying to figure everything out. I've tried to fight and cover up the fact that I don't have everything together. I like to appear focused and that I have everything planned out. But, I do not. I have no idea what my future holds. I have no clue what God wants for my life. I know what the desires of my heart are, so I am trying to bask in the fact that God will lead me where He wants and that He will give me the clarity, passion and peace along the way. I am trying to enjoy not knowing. If you're actually reading this and you happen to think about it, please pray for me about this. Thank you so much dear friends.